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Hi there my dear friends!
Bored outta my gourd here.
so I thought I'd write a little update...
try and bore you all, 'cause as is common knowledge...misery just adores company!!


Things are pretty good over here in the land of lilbit.
still a fucking diabetic. lol
It finally hit me this past week...
this is a lifelong condition!

I suppose I just convinced myself that if I took real good care, the attention required (i.e.: doctors appointments, glucose monitoring, shots...etc.) would decrease over time. Unfortunately, the opposite is true. But the upside is, I'll be paying SOOOOO much attention to my body, that the very moment something goes awry, I'll be on top of it all.
This means I should live FOREVER!!!
yeeeeah bitches!


Nah
I wish! lol
along with realizing the longevity of my disease...I have also been bitchslapped into accepting my own mortality. GAH!!
now that is some scarey ass shit!!
With each passing moment...each day...every doctors appointment (of which there have been MANY) I am reminded of how close to death I was just a month ago. I am amazed by it really. And as I spend time researching (online, books, consulting with others) that point hits harder...a little closer to home.
But, I should be able to live a long, healthy life if I maintain quality care. Thus far I have been pretty diligent. (with the exception of my handful of swedish fish every night).
Just gotta keep it up.
*gooooo team ayleene!!!*


Recovery is a bit slowgoing...but coming along.
I have gained most of my weight back...which makes sense as I've been eating about as much as ORCA the whale.
My blood sugars are still all over the charts.
One day last week I went from 430 one hour to 25 the next.
Nowhere NEAR the range of 90-130 that is my goal.
*meeps*
sooooooo...I have weekly doctors appointments for the next 2 months with a diabetes specialist to adjust my insulin doses...funfunfun
I met him today, and FINALLY feel like the doc I'm talking to actually understands what's going on...unlike my previous doctor who told me my blood sugar reactions "baffled" him. (yeah...'cause THAT'S reassuring)
lol
so...the new doc is a plus for sure.

I've been really stressed about money lately. All of my medical bills have begun arriving in the mail...and because I was uninsured at the time of admittance to the hospital, they equate to well over $100,000.

Fortunately, I was signed up for county aid while being treated, so most if not all of that will be covered. Thank the stars!
I am not allowed to go back to working for at least 2 months though...so all my other expenses are going to be rough to cover. You know...food, cell phone bill, male strippers.


I should be getting back to my art fairly soon.

my eyesight has been gradually improving, and I have whipped out the 'ole camera a few times this week. I still don't feel physically well enough to pose, but I've gotten lots and lots of cute kitty pics and some nice landscapes. I can't even tell you how much I have missed tinkering around in photoshop. That will have to wait a week or so though, because I left my Wacom tablet in New Orleans. *mope* But, I talked to my auntie today, and she just mailed it out...so I should be back to my manipulative (haha) ways in no time!

Okay...
y'all bored enough yet??
good. 'Cause I'm done typing

talk atcha soon!
x's and o's
ayleene
aka: your very own lilbittydiabeticdemon

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quote of the day
“I know that you believe you understand what you think I said, but I'm not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant.”
Robert McCloskey

joke of the day
A Management Lesson

Eddie wanted desperately to have sex with this really cute, really hot girl
in his office....but she was dating someone else.

One day Eddie got so frustrated that he went to her and said, "I'll give
you a $100 if you let me have sex with you..."

The girl looked at him, then said, "NO."

Eddie said, "I'll be real fast. I'll throw the money on the floor, you
bend down, and I'll finish by the time you've picked it up."

She thought for a moment and said that she would consult with her
boyfriend....so she called him and explained the situation.

Her boyfriend says, "Ask him for $200, pick up the money really fast. He
won't even be able to get his pants down."

She agreed and accepts the proposal.

Over half an hour goes by and the boyfriend is still waiting for his girlfriend's call. Finally, after 45 minutes the boyfriend calls and asks what happened....?

Still breathing hard, she managed to reply, "The bastard had all quarters!"

Management lesson:

Always consider a business proposition in it's entirety before agreeing to
it and getting screwed.

funnyfunnyhaha stuff for you
actually...just a damn good slice of advice if you ask me

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